Campbell woke up with me this morning....

loving life this morning... i will share it throughout this blog. This is a photo of the trees in La Parguera Puerto Rico. Moments of bliss in this trip to Puerto Rico. Peaceful! Sharing with tribe and extended tribe, boating, eating, laughing, and assuming each responsibility of the tribe to its full potential bringing about bliss for all... life is good... yes indeed...

i am listening to marc anthony almost cut his veins in one of his songs... bliss is just one word for the feeling that runs through the body... sing it marc! pain of desire basically, she is ignoring him as a stranger in her life and i he dying to have her one more time...

listen to his guy, campbell, he writes this: "Love itself is a pain, you might say -- the pain of being truly alive."

I think is the lack of feeling the love alive that is painful. So there dude, campbell, we are not always going to agree. But definetely agree to disagree with campbell or anyone out there who wishes to share.

See what I have going here in my blog is total unconditional love to my "supposed" followers if there are/is any out there. I just realized that it is more for me than for you anyway. But if you are interested "me" is on fire and wants to share this fire with you. And if you can feel a slight fraction of it, you will be blessed with bliss. Good title for a book or song: Blessed with Bliss. I think I'll write it. Maybe today is the perfect day to embarc in writing or attempting to write a song. Will let you know if I make it.

Will be in touch later. Here is a picture. If I retire in Puerto Rico it is probably going to be in La Parguera or close to there. Have another extended tribe in the hills of Maricao close to El Monte del Estado and it is nice. But la Parguera are my bros and sisters and we have camped and lived in pretty close proximity of each other to know each other and accept each other so well that we flow... so today learn from my experience with my tribe and flow... till later today i remain!

PS: There is a carnival in Miracle Mile today. The whole weekend but today also. Maybe I will skip over to my cousin's apt... he lives right on the Mile and go walk around and look at the artwork.

PEACE OUT!

... stop and feel the essence of a grape against your lips

As the sun moves west warming the apartment and my total being. Thinking about the next to distant future -- say 15 more years and what then? Where to go? What direction will life or I take me? Should I go to Puerto Rico to La Parguera with the rest of my tribe... they already have a space reserved for me, or should I go to Asheville, NC or wherever that place may be. The tabula rasa is empty in that section. If I get to stay at the firm at least until the housing crises is over then maybe the plan will be more feasible and attainable. The firm is offering voluntary retirement to people that have been in the firm for over 5 years. Do to the unstable job market it is not advisable to take the retirement pay off.

Last night and this morning I woke up with the premonition that something was wrong with my son and that he needed to get out of the current situation. Silently and then verbally I told God that he was to carry him if necessary to wellness. My son choses a different way of life and at times there is a sudden jolt and I am stopped and he comes to my mind. I turn it over to my higher power and let it go. It happened twice in the last 24 hours. Those are motherhood moments. The chakras that feel it the most are the heart chakra, the life chakra, and the solar plexus chakra. It is the fear that if not stopped on its tracks develops and affects the body as well as the balance of my spirit.

But last night and today I have devoted the time to being loving and sensuous with me... as if someone walked in and served me breakfast in bed with fresh fruit, griddle grilled swiss cheese sandwich with mustard... swiss cheese was pouring out of it, AltoGrande puertorican coffee, my laptop, burned some oil in my spa bath, candles all over the house to bring soft sweet scents to my surroundings... loving myself... warming and lighting up my soul. I said YES to life and I say YES to life NOW! I am feeling deep butterflies in my chakras, my mind, my body are feeling this beautiful energy. I would self-destruct if it wasn't this smooth tingling electricity running through and around my body feels the way it feels. It is like a soft sheet softly traveling in space and so very softly touching my skin... Even a small round purple seedless grape feels special to eat and against my lips. It is a state of bliss. If you feel it, good for you and please do not judge me.

Someone said to me today that these feelings are what keep us alive. I agree that they are the essence of life. Life throws us many curve balls and we just have to make sure one does not knock us down. Stay on our toes. And when these feelings surface feel intensely the bliss and be thankful for same. And so it is... or not...