Today is the eve before that famous thanksgiving event that some of us apprehensively celebrate. I will go through the motions and see if in the process I find all the wonderful things that I will be celebrating tomorrow. Obliterating the thoughts that cripple, as many of us refer to as "demons," would be a great place to start. :)
All the books that I have read over the years on self help say that one has to eradicate the negative by forgiveness and then and only then will one be able to free ones soul from the demons. I also learned that we are spiritual beings with a body attached to us. If this is so I evoke the spirit of my son to reach out and touch me and for that thought, I will be thankful tomorrow. I wonder if I will be able to eat the spread of food tomorrow. I wonder. The slight thought of him being hungry takes my hunger away. Not trying to go there as they say... but the thought crosses my mind.
Even though I have seen that America takes care of their hungry during the holidays. Don't forget the less fortunate during the holiday when we are eating. Remember. Contribute to shelters and organizations that what you feel is your trash. It will be someone else's fortune. Donate $10 in any shelter on line. It takes 5 minutes and maybe it is my son that will get a new pair of shoes for Thanksgiving as he did last year. And for that I will also be thankful. There is no way to hide from them. Thoughts of family together and not. Thoughts of who is family and who is not. Thoughts of whether or not they will see your pain and somehow feel sorry for you. No... pitty no one wants to feel from others ... learned that from my son Dustin. Wherever he may be. That is a blessing... his lessons throughout life and he is still teaching me. For that I will also be thankful. He said blessing some homeless person on the streets was signaling him out from the rest and therefore in some way looking at them in a different way as we would look at any other human being. He said, "they did not want to feel singled out from the rest of the society, mom!" He had never been homeless when he said this. Another lesson from my son about the injustice and lack of appropriate admonishment of the homeless and/or the less fortunate. For that I am also thankful.
In the midst of it all I have managed to bake banana/cranberry bread and made some coquito (puertorican eggnog). I have been cleaning the house as if Santa was really coming to town. HO! HO! HO! Will celebrate Xmas this weekend and will get a tree since my baby is going back home to celebrate the holidays with his family. For this I am also thankful -- that he can go spend time with his family. He is very fortunate. Just want to say that I am going to spell out what I envision my loved son doing this holiday. I envision him living under a roof with others that accept him and if do not love him at least do not interfere with him. He is healthy and he smiles and giggles even if out of context. I always found my son to be OK regardless of what health issues he faced. I always accepted him, even when he shaved his head and his eyebrows. He... he... It was his soul that was ok. For that I am also thankful. And with that thought, I would like to extend a warm wish to all out there and enjoy and appreciate your family, you never know when you will not have them around!
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